missing

i miss cruisin' in lola peacock with marion and screaming "THE REASON IS YOU!!!" to jessica , i miss having spanish class with stevie sushmi albert greg and whoever else . . .i miss zimbabwe , i miss hanging out a roberts house with all the arcadians and how we all were back then , i miss the fat rafting group at knight's ferry - buckethead , those random conversations friday's afterschool with all of us at lindsay's house , how kyle robert and i used to go out and play 20 questions at tony rama's , my papa'a el camino freshman year and paris sketches in the fog , all my memories with melissa , the way i could talk to the guy i owe a batch of snickerdoodles to on the phone from sundown to sun up and thats the reason i had that quiet ringtone , how i would talk to alex online . . . .for hours last summer and yeah untill the sun came up - that was so crazy 3 nights in a row , i miss robert and chillin in his car talking about all that stuff and running to the mall to get him a dress shirt for winter ball this year , haha linz robert and my jjj club wow, i miss writing those postcards too, summerschool! yeah you heard me those potlucks were awesome and i had a blast, how about mike michigan and his homies at calstatehayward . . not eastbay hell no , i miss my dog missey and my dad's '71 mustang , i miss that one television show "early edition" and doug . . . though that's easily replaced , i miss my awesome co-worker in home department at jc penny's . . mmy gumballs and singing santa baby at 1am , i miss riding horses and quad rides and my endless frustration with a cowboy , what happened to the thursday evening movie gigs at sushmi's , or the weekley bowling shindig we had going? , will the days when sitting in a circle in roberts family room at 5am talking about the buddha and other dimensions and how if we put our backs to eachother ever return . . .haha and the sugar game! and amy and tiff shopping in albertsons arguing about the effects of cough drops wow those were good blueberrie muffins , i miss the jazz festivals and marching season, swim meets in the freezing cold and eating those fruit snacks with everyone , i miss how i'd drive the trombones around and all of our food adventures and how we'd find time to blast coheed and cambria while i raced beween the band room and field . . . yeah it WAS tooo far to walk haha , i miss the conversations i used to have with bryan and being his bus buddy talking about why snl is so successful. i miss sophomore year with raymond and how we'd stay up so late complaining about those essays and using the weird fonts like jokerman on our titles so we always knoews who's was who's in campbells class . . and the time he was over untill 1am bullshitting a morroco project with me while eating chubby burgers, and i miss alan who kinda felt like a band brother , all the brass sectionals on that hill freshman year and the football games with chris drago and melissa , angelo making me cry freshman year . .. .okay marching season! , i miss chicago with dora making that dumb video while sarah and linz were sleeping and then linz popped up , i miss junior prom building too . . that was some fun times and how tj used to style my hair with jocelyn all awesomely , i miss sitting with craig janessa and dinah , "craig's good". i miss my little inside joke about rain with david . . . not the basis of the joke but just that we had a joke , i miss the barn dances that i used to go to with sara back in the day running around playing hide and seek and venturing around with mike hahaha oh yeah , camping used to be a anual activity for my family . . .it was cool , i miss the early mornings when my nannie and papa would pick my brother and me up to go to the delta and fish off their awesome boat , i miss you i always had to fight in the pool so i wouldn't drown from my super tall brother , and how i played monopoly with my cousin christina and uncles in milpitas every holiday. i misseven more that's alot i guess but i miss things and people that are right there everyday , practically in front of me but somethings different. remember that thing "how can i miss you if you wont go away?" well now i know that it's possible , and it makes me sad.